I’m Physically Sick With Fear

Tina was diagnosed with leukemia when she was 29 and we were newlyweds. Two years ago, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. I got home from a business trip to find out that her routine dental x-rays had led to a referral to a dental surgeon because two things might be cancerous. One a shadow, the other white like another tooth. “With your history, just to be sure,” the dentist said, but didn’t offer a “but there are lots of other things that are more likely.”

You Google “jaw cancer” and you hear about oral cancers in general — bad — or osteosarcoma — bad.

She sees the surgeon on Friday.